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Prayers and Thoughts

12:40am 27/03/2009

mood:

sad

So I tend to not really pray for stuff, but I have a friend who could really use the prayers and good thoughts of people right now. My friend Kelsey just found out she has leukemia. This is harder for me than I thought it would be to find out and I managed to stay composed and be lighthearted around her, but now that I'm at home I'm really emotional. Right now they have her on pretnozone (sp?) and she needs surgery for something and they're going to take a bone graft and see about chemo. She's thinking of waiting till summer for that if she can. I don't really know anything else. I remember she said when she was in the hospital over spring break (and on her 19th bday, sucky) that she has either no t cells or a very small amount.

(hug me)

Random
		11:58pm 14/12/2008
	I just caught part of a Star Trek episode. I've never really watched the orignal series. It was weird seeing William Shatner young. I love Boston Legal so am used to seeing him look old.
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Stolen from someone else
		02:34pm 10/10/2008
	Put your music player on random. Post the first line (or so) from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. (I skipped songs with no lyrics and comedy pieces.) I had to skip a lot of Animaniacs, Monty Python, and other comedy. I'm sure some of the animaniacs might have counted as songs, but probably no one would know it, I wouldn't. Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from. Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly. Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING! Chances are I don't check this that often and may not always bold in a timely manner, sorry. ( The first lines )
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Busy few days

10:46am 19/08/2008

mood:

excited

So Sunday I went to see Wicked at the Pantages with my mom and sisters. It was what my youngest sister wanted for her birthday. We've decided to make it a tradition for birthdays from now on. None of us really do parties anymore and going to the theater with the girls was a lot of fun. Glinda was Barbie come to life, she did these little spazzy movements that made me laugh so much. The singing was incredible and we're thinking of going again in December. Anyone in the LA area should go see it.

Afterwards we met my brother and dad at El Cholo's, which is this Mexican Restaurant in LA that my mom really likes. I saw an old high school teacher at the next table so I said hi, even though I hadn't liked her too much when she was a teacher. She told me I should visit and I agreed that I had meant to but hadn't had the time. Classes started yesterday so I visited, more on that later.

After dinner, my brother and I had our "date." I hadn't really spent as much time with him as I had with my sisters, so I decided to invite him to go to see The Dark Knight with me, because neither of us had seen it yet and we both wanted to. I liked it, he wants to see whatever next one they make if they do make another one. He's been kinda reclusive since his girlfriend broke up with him, so I'm kinda glad that he's sorta making plans to go out again even though it won't be for a long time. We're kinda counting on Jessica to get him out of his cave (room) while Angela and I are gone.

Visiting the high school. Only 4 of my old teachers are still teaching and then the one I saw is now librarian. Mr. Salehi wasn't even there though, so I only saw 3. My freshman English teacher, Biology teacher, and Calculus teacher. Mr. Riley was excited that one of his students went on to be a math major (there really aren't any at that school, I'm not even sure if anyone who was there at the same time I was (3 years either way) was a math major). I told him about my research and he thought it was pretty cool. The principal seemed excited that I want to teach high school math and said she'd love to have me go back and teach. That was exciting because I think I could really like that. And Mr. Riley may be leaving because his wife is going for her PhD and they may be out of state. So there will be an opening for next school year. It's kinda sad that so many of my teachers are gone. I was introduced to new teachers and to some of the students as my teachers had their hurried first day of class quick walk through. I got lots of comments that I looke exactly the same. If I had had the uniform and my old tie (or not and passed as a frosh) I could have been one of the gold ties. There's been a lot of changes there, I got lost and had to ask directions to some of the rooms because I didn't know who was where anymore. I'm glad I went though, lots of good memories came back to me.

Now I'm on my way back to Chico (at Sacramento airport) and I get to hang out with some of my friends for the next couple days. I get to see my old roommate, Sarah, which is happy. Arielle and I have plans for later today too.

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Earthquake
		12:12pm 29/07/2008
	There was an earthquake about less than 30 minutes ago. We're all ok, phones are iffy. It's been a really long time since I was in an earthquake. I kinda forgot what it was like. There doesn't seem to be any damage where I am. I don't really know what else to say about it. Oh, I haven't said anything about my birthday I don't think. I just spent a quiet day at home and got food from my favorite restaurant. We had cake and the next day I went to my sister's soccer tournament. Her team ended up in second place.
		(hug me)

Stuff and things
		02:28pm 09/06/2008
	There's been so much since the last time that I don't really know what to put here. Most everyone has left Chico. I'm leaving tomorrow. Right now Stacey's boyfriend is staying at our place even though Stacey is gone. I'm happy about it because it's creepy being alone when everything is quiet and you don't even have the tv anymore to make noise so little things don't scare you. I don't really want to go home. But my sister's have graduations so I want to support them. Maybe I'll catch a train back up and stay on Ben's couch or with some other friend who'll still be in Chico. I went out dancing at the studio with Evan on Saturday night. Some guy I didn't know came up to me and told me I was very nice looking. And that he wasn't trying to hit on me. And that he didn't like how some girls only talk and don't want to dance. And whine about how some girls are mean and brush guys off. We Are Scientists is touring in July. I want to go but don't know which city I'll be nearest to, it's either LA or Sacramento. Shannon if you read this are you in CA? Or still in Colorado? Because if you were here and going it would be really cool to see you again.
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Phone Number
		12:45am 18/05/2008
	I'm frustrated. I was randomly looking at all the numbers in my phone and I get to one named Brent. I know a Brent from dancing and think it might be his, but his number is from the area code here (530) and this one is a Seattle number (206). I have no idea who it is, I'll probably end up calling him and asking tomorrow since it's too late now. But this is bugging me that I can't figure out who it is.
		(hug me)

Because Rachel was procrastinating. Yes Rachel, I blame you.
		07:49pm 14/05/2008
	If you comment below and post this in your journal, I will: 1. Tell you why I friended you 2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc. 3. Tell you something I like about you. 4. Tell you a memory I have of you. 5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you. 6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
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BRAIN THRUST MASTERY!!!

11:52pm 13/05/2008

music: WAS - That One Pop Gem

It came out today. So this is the second WAS album with their label. I called Best Buy this morning at around 10 because they only had one copy come in and I couldn't be there at 10 to get it. So I had them hold it for me because I promised to be in later to get it. I don't know if they normally do that. Maybe they figured since they hadn't heard of it no one else would want it. So, I have listened to the songs on the album. There's about 4 that I like, and the others are ok, but not that great in my opinion. It also gave a lot of early recordings and some other songs that all of a sudden showed up on my itunes. I really like That One Pop Gem which I guess was on the In Action album. There's cool computer stuff that I need to play with more.

In other news (read: boy news) I'm at that point where I want to get a boy according to the Speechwriters LLC way (from Acetate)
"If you were in the market for a boy
You would find yourself a man and a mattress and make one."
I'm lonely. And I really need physical contact. My friend Rahil still says to go to Berkeley so that he can make sure I'm never lonely again, but that's just him being his flirty self with me because that's how he and I are with each other.

I dunno. I've met some cool guys online, and there's one I'm starting to like, but at this point it's kinda hard to know what to do, how to move things forward, how to know if he wants to move things forward, etc. I have a little practice making first moves thanks to Gene last summer, but that was in person. I don't know how to be good at being more obviously flirty online.

That sounds so whiny. So back to the awesomeness of the beginning of this. YAY FOR MORE WE ARE SCIENTISTS!!! I was waiting for this day for a couple months. It's definitely different from their early stuff, even though this has some of the early classics, spotomatic freeze, bomb inside the bomb, star L23, etc. I still like them. I can't help not liking them. And Chris still reminds me of my dad.

(9 hugs | hug me)

Because I was bored

10:00pm 13/05/2008

music: W.A.S.- Brain Thrust Mastery

Appearance
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (I'm getting better at not being so bad about it)
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (some drunk guy at Long Tall Glasses frosh year)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (I'm really bad about this to the point most of my teachers just kinda know to expect it. They talk about me)
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[?] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.(possibly. not sure)
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ]I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone. (I think I broke my toe, at the point, I had jammed it week before and it wasn't worth going and getting the xray, so just dealt with it)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico. (I have family there)
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star. (one of those childhood type things)
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (there was a pajama jam at the school dance)
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. (I thought I did, but looking back I don't think so)
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger. (Tyler before I knew him)
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (Every time I visited Adam at Mudd and was supposedly staying with Rachel or Shannon or some other female friend. I don't think my parents minded when I stayed with Robert and Alan or Matt though, so I guess just not staying with the boyfriend)
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime. (hit and run when I was around 14ish)
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[?] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (sometimes. I did it a bit when Adam and I broke up, but I've gotten better about it)
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. (kinda again with the Adam thing.)
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[?] Someone close to me has committed suicide. (not really close to me, but you all can see the post before this one)
[x] I've planned my own suicide. (Back when I was getting teased all the time in middle school I thought about ways I thought I could kill myself. Eventually I decided I wouldn't be able to do any of them)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (my adorable GIR from Invader Zim shirt)
[x] I own something from Pac Sun. (a couple pairs of jeans that were on sale and fit really well)
[ ] I collect comic books.
[?] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] i own something from Hollister

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly. (sadly, although I do know time and place and company)
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (a little, even though I'm kinda bad about it sometimes)
[x] I am a sports fanatic. (I wake up insanely early when needed for world cup games. If it's not soccer though, I don't really care)
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[?] I've worn pajamas to school. (does a themed ballroom dance at the school count?)
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. (If I get really into it)
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (there were pretty much only tests, so I did well on all those, and the one assignment I skipped. It was worth 10% of grade and I didn't get perfects on all tests, so I'm not sure how it happened)
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.(I'm super scared of them, but getting slightly better)
[x] I am really ticklish. (I have to be in the right mood. But that's almost all the time)
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] I answered all these questions honestly

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A fellow researcher

01:15am 08/05/2008

mood:

shocked

Today has been crazy. I found out from Sophy that one of the people who did knot theory research with us committed suicide. We thought it was fairly recent, but when I told Miguel, other knot theory researcher, he found something on the UCSC website from December. We're all a little shocked. I don't really know what to say except it's really sad. I didn't know much about him because he mostly kept to himself. I guess that could be a sign, but he always seemed to have pick up soccer games to go to, so we figured that's what he wanted to do. We invited him to hang out with the group whenever we saw him, we just didn't see him that much. We kind of gave him the name elusive Michael because we didn't see him very often outside of research. I think that's really all I can say about it. http://www.ucsc.edu/news_events/messages/text.asp?pid=1796 is the website of the administrative notice that was made.

(hug me)

Dancing and hugs

02:10am 09/12/2007

mood:

happy

So my roommate Sarah and I decided this afternoon to do a game thing with friends, so we had a few over and played Munchkin Fu. It's fun, I recommend the munchkin games to people. And later we went to the studio to dance. It was fun, but the thing that stood out was that Hugh, the short asian amazing dancer ( I don't remember if I've talked about him before, maybe) danced with me for one song and then later in the night, he came over and gave me a hug and said "I'm tired" and then continued to hug me for a while and rock side to side. So I'm hugging this guy, just kinda wondering what's up, and then he stops and leads me out to dance floor. He confuses me. At the studio, he's been really good about asking me to dance recently and at the school dances he kinda ignores me. I would think that since there's better dancers at the studio I'd be more likely to be ignored there than at the school ones, but I dunno. Anyways, the day was fun and now time for bed.

(hug me)

HOME FOR THANKSGIVING
		09:14pm 15/11/2007
	Just to let people know, I will be home Saturday afternoon and stay till the morning of the following Saturday. So anyone who will be in Torrance area or wants to go to Torrance area to see me, let me know, I'm fairly sure I want to see you too.
		(hug me)

Awesome night
		02:34pm 11/11/2007
	So last night I went dancing at the studio. I stayed till the close at about 1, but Jesse (my ride) and I were talking so we hung out, and then Luke (studio owner) came back with a couple friends and one of them is a really good singer, so we gave her a mike and played music and danced some more. Then Luke gets songs released early, so he played some for us to get our opinion on if we like them as dance songs. Around 3 we left for Denny's because George was hungry. We stayed there till 4:45 or so, and I got home around 5. It was starting to get light out, it was soo cool. I never stay out that late, and never would be able to at home. I'm so gonna miss the Chico dance scene when I go back home, I really need to find something like this near where I live. Any Torrance people know something in the area, I like West Coast Swing a lot, so somewhere that would play music like that and have people there who know how to dance that would be great, so let me know. Now I have a couple hours before a study group. Too bad the long weekend can't be all just fun.
		(hug me)

The fires and other stuff
		02:32pm 23/10/2007
	There's lots of fires in Southern California, as I'm sure most people know about. I'm reminded of when I first talked to Megan, who was my roommate for a little while at Mudd when she asked me the summer before we all went there if all of California was on fire. I've looked at maps, and luckily they're nowhere near my family and where we live. But I do know lots of people who are in danger of losing their stuff, so I hope everyone is ok. Another thing I had wanted to comment on was Pink Hair for Hope. I read something about this online and it seems no one else in Chico had heard of it. For those who don't know, it's a $10 donation and you can get a pink extension in your hair. It seemed like a cool idea, but no one up here is participating. It's for Breast Cancer awareness. That was pretty much it. I hope everyone's safe. Keep the people near the fires in your thoughts.
		(hug me)

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